...Its a bit strange how life changes a person overtime...I actually never thought i'd be what i've become...Infact, i was sooo sure that i even started fearing my own self. O_o weird? Yes, I know. I am starting to realize things..starting to look at stuff in a way that'll explain why its happenning..or why it happenned..or even why it might happen.....if it does that is =)
My jaan told me once..that i should spend some time..thinking about myself..that i should forget the world for once, the people, my friends, yes my jaan included..and I should just see myself, observe what i do..what I think..and why i think what I think and how it leads me to what I do..even the smallest things..such as..why exactly did I use, both, a small "i" & a big "I"..am i going crazy? Probably...

Sad part is...this isnt even the smallest of the smallest deals...

Sad? No...not sad....its something I should have realized earlier..just like...maybe others should too...if they know what i am getting at...

Though i have my jaan...n thats probably enough for me for each & everything =) ..there are a few people...who i just cant let go...and...i wont <3 ...Drawing...used to be like hunger...Nope...i couldnt sleep without drawing something...now...its a burden... Yes I do want to sometimes..but..i mess around in Photoshop instead...Music ♪...Thirst...I could go without water...but music.... yes..i've cut down..i infact...havent touched my MP3 player... for months...i listen to...1-3 songs max..a day...or...every other day...People...I actually try to stay away now...those who i alrdy have...are the ones I need...the ones...I want.

soo...wheres Ash you ask? The "Ash" you all used to know...well...Right here..this is...the real deal...How...it always should've been..but...went all wrong..but...a part of me...is actually slightly gald...that it went wrong...not all of it...but certain parts of it..because...now..I Have You. =)

so...ThankYou..from the Depths of..not just my Heart..but..Myself.

..Know that...I'll Never Let Go..

&ThatsMyPromise<3

... i♥you.~*

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