soo..

well.. since i have lotsa time to spare these days.. ive been thinking... thinking a LOT.. about stuff that has happenned over the last few years...

.. lol i still remember promises and confessions i made to myself in highschool.. its rllyy funny how they seemed soooo very very possible and true back then.. and come time.. as in now.. lol ... everything is quite the opposite? =P

>.> which ofcourse.. may not always entirely be a bad thing.. not saying i am happy with life right now.. but =] i am holding up and smiling everyday.. so.. that must show something, right?

.. But ive come to realize.. being as alone as i am.. without siblings or pets.. etc .. memories of what ive had and done is what keeps me going.. and i realize the most now... when i find myself being truly uncomfy around people.. as far as i can remember.. i have always been a people's person... loved company.. meeting new people.

.. Well. Not anymore.. -.-

lol.. i guess.. as time passes.. people change.. but what we forget is.. our past never can change..

.. Must learn to accept that and ^^ hold on~

=D yay for 4:00 am rant!!!

bai<3

Labels: blah, mew, moo, quack, rant, wuf

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

... Boredom.~*

^^ HiHi~

x.x boredom can be sooo evul, ne?

...

Well, not much has been happenning in my "current" life. Gonna be starting at the new university pretty soon... its a lot smaller than the one i was in for my first year. But then again.. this one is private.. =/ i managed to get $10,000 in scholarships and grants.. and will be getting those each year i stay at Newman. x.x Supposedly, this uni has the best science program.. and anyone who gets in as pre-med.. becomes a doctor.. so.. lets hope it has an effect on me..

I started volunteering.. since i cant rly work out here.. ive started off at this place called Center of Hope.. and will eventually move onto a nursing home near my uni.. and after that.. to an actual E.R. inna hospital.. .x.x.. i guess it would be a good experience.. going into med school.. but.. ill have to prep myself a lot for what i might see there...

=/ i think working-out has made a difference... i seem to be more in shape.. x.x not more active really, but.. just looking better i guess... hopefully a few more months will kill all the chubby-ness~

nothing else to do here really.. =/ ppl are weird.. kids are weirder.. too much drama.. thts why i hate small places.. big cities.. ppl mind their own business.. over here.. everyone else's business.. is your business...x.x ugh.. w/e.. anyways...

i guess i am just gonna wait for something magical to happen.. and bring excitement into my life once again -.- ...

>.> so.. here was my.. 4:00 am rant.. x.x it reminds me of a song.. one of my most favourite ones.. 4 Am Forever.. by Lostprophets..

=] anyhow~

iMissYewAll~ <3

Bai<3

Labels: blahness, bored, mew, rant

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