x.x heyy~

k so.. it turns out that my parents suddenly got the summer bug.. and they wanna run away from Wichita...

=/ i dont rly blame them...

so like.. we're leaving for Dallas tmrw... an approximately 6 hr road-trip -_-;;; ... my poor butt~
=[ but like... i prolly wont be online till Tuesday now... x.x what sucks even more is... poor Puppy finished all his work and assignments yesterday... so we could actually talk tday and spend some time together...=| not getting much time lately..

BUT~

...my parents made sure i was busy allllll dayyy... they even got mad if i entered my room for 2 minutes! @_@... they made me pack... prepare fooood...x.x find gifts and pack them.... all the stuuuffff... and guess what... WE'RE STILL NOT DONE!!!!!

@*&#*@&#*@&#*@(#&~!!!

soo... i was busy doing that allll day long... but Puppy said tht it was fine and he waited for me almost all day ><>< ....

><><><>< ...and when i finally thought i was free.. Dad announces we need snacks for the trip and drags me to the store 11 at night ><...I was feeling sooo bad... cuz Puppy was still waiting for me to come on... so i went n told him that i was being dragged out.... and i even asked him if he'd wait a bit longer.. n he said yesh.... ...but once i came home...x.x and finally crashed... exhausted... i saw he wasnt there...>< he didnt even leave a msg or anything...

....x.x i feel rly bad~

thank goodness Nimmy was there...=D she kept me company for a bit...but then she went to sleep...x.x which i should be doing to.. atm...

=[ i'll miss you all!!!!

=D ill take lotsa pics and show them!

Until then... take care and missss meeee <3

Dallas~ Here I Come~!!!!!!!!!

Labels: dallas, fun, puppy, sad, trip, vacation

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

... Sway.~*

hey~

Been a while... but.. i feel like rambling a bit... so.. here goes..

I am sure most of us can actually relate to being in situations where we have no choice or control. Well.. let me assure you, that my life has become such a situation....

Its stupid really.. i dont get told things that are absolutely my business.. recently, i got told..Oh! You're transferring to a new university.. But...it doesnt really matter.. Because you dont have any other choice... Yea..right.. its absolutely not... but when time comes for my performance and crap... EVERYTHING is my business... because ofcourse they were being kind enough to grant me such an opportunity... and i was stupid enough to not match their standards...

I've changed so much... it hurts me now.. I am not the kind of person who trusts people anymore... my own parents and family to be exact.. i lash out so easily... and.. i think they get it when i do.. I hate being this way... i dont like arguments and pesky fights... i reaallllyy dont... I despise that crap.

Then why is my life being turned into a living hell?... i cant even... do anything... because i literally dont have what it takes.... how do they expect me to go on with this attitude they have forced me to develop?... it kills me inside every bloody day..

...bleh.. well.. i guess all I CAN do is hope.... for mercy... even a moment of mercy & peace...

i miss everyone <3

I hope you are faring better than me~

*mwah*

Labels: anger, blah., idioticness, rant

*** Doushite...♥ @ 2:48 AM

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