hey~

Been a while... but.. i feel like rambling a bit... so.. here goes..

I am sure most of us can actually relate to being in situations where we have no choice or control. Well.. let me assure you, that my life has become such a situation....

Its stupid really.. i dont get told things that are absolutely my business.. recently, i got told..Oh! You're transferring to a new university.. But...it doesnt really matter.. Because you dont have any other choice... Yea..right.. its absolutely not... but when time comes for my performance and crap... EVERYTHING is my business... because ofcourse they were being kind enough to grant me such an opportunity... and i was stupid enough to not match their standards...

I've changed so much... it hurts me now.. I am not the kind of person who trusts people anymore... my own parents and family to be exact.. i lash out so easily... and.. i think they get it when i do.. I hate being this way... i dont like arguments and pesky fights... i reaallllyy dont... I despise that crap.

Then why is my life being turned into a living hell?... i cant even... do anything... because i literally dont have what it takes.... how do they expect me to go on with this attitude they have forced me to develop?... it kills me inside every bloody day..

...bleh.. well.. i guess all I CAN do is hope.... for mercy... even a moment of mercy & peace...

i miss everyone <3

I hope you are faring better than me~

*mwah*

Labels: anger, blah., idioticness, rant